Tests are over... hooray. But there's nothing to do... I'm staying at home. I don't know why. The places that I used to go don't attract me anymore. I'm getting old and boring.
Had a long talk with Elissa last night. Actually... Most of the nights this week... Anyway, she said something like the world sucks. It just sucks to the people who are sitting on the fence. To those who see both sides of the picture.

It doesn't suck to those who are immersed in the world... At least not to those who are just getting started. Maybe they don't realise whats on the other side of the fence... Or they choose to ignore the empty feeling they get after every party or after every night of clubbing. What do they do to counter that feeling? They make more plans, they go to bigger parties, they drink more, they smoke more, they take more drugs... Why? Because its fun. Because for that few hours they hide the meaninglessness of it all. Ignorance is bliss while its lasts.

It sucks to those who know that they cannot be satisfied by the world. But yet cannot find or obtain what really satisfies. Or to those who know but still look back once in a while. People like me who can't let go... Trying to reason, "What if I went back and tried things in a different way?" or "What would it seem like with all that I learnt these 2 years?"
Just can't get my mind round the fact that I don't need those things!
I know I don't... but they're just fun. Having fun is not a sin... But consider the means of obtaining them.

::: Quote of the Day :::
The world is only unfair to those who are of the world...